CrazyMedicalStudent_RunningOnBorrowedTime

Dissapointment...

2007-10-02T20:01:00.000+08:00

~ all i wanted was a little help... is it really that hard? it was the easiest thing... it wouldn't need much time... i never really asked for your help before... in fact up till now i only really ask for ur help twice... and both times you turned me down... trust me, i didn't turn to you the instant i need help... you were my last options... guess in the end... i have to rely on other people during my greatest time of need... pulling favors that would be really hard to repay... guess in the end, i got no one to rely on...

~ whenever you ask for help, i am always there... without fail... never had i asked why or have i ever reprimanded you for ur foolishness... i did all i could to help... sincerely... support, encouragement, time, emotionally, morally... all because i know how it feels like to feel really useless and helpless in certain situation... all because i know how important it is that by the end of the day you know that there is someone that you can really truly rely on...

Fools...

2007-08-05T16:23:00.000+08:00

~ girls are fools... majority of them at least... in fact, 'majority' is an understatement...

~ watching NANA2 and Kimi Wa Petto made me realise (much to my chagrin, even my experience says so) that girls are just a bunch of fools that wouldn't even know if the best things are presented in a gold platter in front of them... fools... hurting people around them without realizing the amount of trauma they will cause... always trying to act noble and nice but in a way its not...

~ i guess guys should grow up to realise that girls aren't worth everything... they aren't...

Lonely

2007-08-05T16:17:00.000+08:00

~ lonely... thats what i'm feeling right now... its like suddenly i'm all alone in this world... no one to talk to, no one to be with, no one to hang out with...

~ i just realize that people i call friends are more of an acquaintances than true friends... damn... hahaha so much of a revelation... in a way, its better to know now than to know much latter... so... where are my real friends then... where...

P*SSED!!!

2007-07-20T15:53:00.000+08:00

~ oh i'm so pissed lately... everything seems to be going against me... but to top it off, alot of things seem to be getting on my nerves... i wonder why...

~ it seems like i have the same old problem all over again... people seem to judge me by my appearance and presume my characters through things that i do... nobody seem to really care to figure out who i really am... its just, im whoever they thing i am... what kinda shit IS that? just because i DotA alot, rarely attend lectures, dun care shit if i am hanging out with the coolest people or doing the hippest things in town doesn't make me a hopeless and irresponsible fool... i don't do things just because it makes me looks cool, or hang out with the most popular group just to rub off their popularity... dude... that is like so plastic... i hate hipocracy and what less being fake!!!

~ i know very well that i told my cheerleading peeps (not even sure if i should still call them that) that i can't attend the cheerleading practice since i am sick and yet go DotA the very same night... but do you guys not understand that DotA does not involve strenuous workout nor do i need to run around, jump around and sweat till i die? to me DotA is a form of relaxation, i am sick; slept for around the WHOLE day, can't i at least go release some stress... does that make me an irresponsible person? trying to 'relax' when i am sick is uncool? fine!!! then i am an uncool person... so be it!!! i dun f**king care if im uncool but i am NOT f**king irresponsible!!! dun ever say that shit heads!!! if being sick and trying to at least make a bit of a fun out of it is irresponsible then there are a f**king lot of irresponsible people out there!!!

~ dun ever ever try to judge me for what i did without even asking me the reason first... be clever for once and try to at least understand the situation abit before you actually try to be a critique!!! i didn't know shit that the next day will have another cheerleading practice!!! in case you all did not know, i'm STILL sick and i have promised my aunt to run an errand for her that day since like a LONG time ago... and THAT makes me an undedicated bastard??? F**K you!!! if i am an undedicated person where the hell was i when not even one shitheads are willing to be in the cheerleading group in sem3??? WHERE??? where are all those 'dedicated' person when we need them??? all f**king quit on us... we had to beg you guys, run around like dogs, make promises, find people, come out with out own choreograph since no one is willing to help a losing and memberless team!!! WHERE ARE ALL THE DEDICATED BASTARDS BACK THEN!!! i stayed on since the first day i promised to be in it!!! i run around to beg for people to join!!! we need to get seniors to convince all those 'dedicated' people!!! so now that im sick, was on an errand - legit reasons for god sakes - i am UNDEDICATED!!! F**K you!!! F**K you all DEDICATED people!!!

Complicated

2007-07-08T22:32:00.000+08:00

~ things are so complicated nowadays... what happened to those good old days where everything is simple and easily understood? i miss those times... can't anything be simple nowadays?

~ i'm so stressed our recently... i suddenly feel so lonely... i've become so restless... can't concentrate on anything... everything is a blur... nothing seems to be right... what is going on? i feel like sleeping, sleeping and sleeping... forever... and ever... f**k...

~ wargh... i can't even blog coherently anymore... f**k f**k F**K!!!

Like Shyt!!!

2007-07-04T03:00:00.001+08:00

~lately, everything is just not going right for me... everything is just wrong... so wrong... hahaha, i finally updated my blog and the first thing i rant about is how this whole f**king world is going against me... just so like me... isn't this how i started this blog in the 1st place... the only place i can find solace... the only place where i can shout and curse and rant bout any single f**king thing in this whole wide world - the whole wide web in this case... sic - and not have anyone try to make me feel even more worse... guess you all must be wondering why the sudden urge to blog... whats the freaking f**king trauma that i went through to make me want to blog again; to revisit my only haven of solace...

~life is cruel, it has always been... but for some reason, it has always been fair... people tend to interpret life as unfair - f**king unfair in some case- but in truth its always fair... call it karma, call it quantum theory (what the f**k am i talking bout here...) but it has always been so... but why... why... why am i feeling that it isn't... don't f**king tell me coz it is... it isn't... its meant to always be fair... lol... who am i trying to bluff... denial... thats what i'm in now... somehow, i think i have just skipped the few stages of denial and have entered the last stage of it: acceptance... crazy... F**K!!!

Something I did during my Free Time

2007-07-04T03:00:00.000+08:00

Double Shock

Some Sleights

I had some free time and this is what I do... Finally updated my post eh... And this is what I give you guys.... Hahahaha.... Good what, at least you all will have some fun time ;p

Great Teacher Onizuka {GTO}

2006-12-28T23:43:00.000+08:00

oh my freaking god... GTO man GTO!!! my all time favourite japanese manga and drama!!! this is the 2nd time i'm watching the japanese real life drama... and i'm still so hooked to it!!! its just so nice... i guess it evoked a very special feeling in me about my high school years... i miss high school... all those stupid things we do; the crazy stuff; the fun stuff; the memorable stuff and not to forget the bad ones, the really bad ones and, and... the sad memories too, the dissapointing ones, the harsh ones, the rude ones, the pain ones... oh man... i miss high school... if i ever have a chance to relive my life once more, i will definately start out during my high school years... oh oh and then there is the basketball session, the futsal session (at that time its still called street soccer), the secret darts session in our photography club room, the what is it called again in malay thing that we kick around which has feathers attached to it session which we have behind our classroom when the teachers are not around... the singing session, the guitar session, the hidding in the prefect's room session... man, the list goes on and on and on... awww... that nostalgic feelings are churning up inside me... gawd... *sic* i'm gona cry... you know, come to think of it, how i wish i have a home room teacher (class teacher in japanese) like onizuka. he will definately increase the fond memories of my high school years by ten folds!!! no, hundred folds even!!! yeah GTO rwaks!!! da best!!! i highly recommend this show!!! i think i might even watch it the 3rd time... the 4th time maybe? hahahaha. oh the youtube finished loading d... gotta go watch my GTO... i know i'm not suppose to be doing this when my EOS is like 12 days away and i like still have 3 systems more to go (translation: 100++ lecture notes to go...) but then again... GTO!!!

Saving Turtles NO More......

2006-11-22T21:37:00.000+08:00

my dream of being a hero went down the drain today after receiving an sms from our group leader...... : "keat how, i'm sori, but we can't save turtles no more... its monsoon season at tat time..." curse that bloody monsoon... does it not noe tat we are trying to help preserve some turtles here... god, how can that idiotic monsoon be so selfish... of the 365 days to choose, it purposely chose the time when we are finally gona do something benificial to the lower life forms... poor turtles... who are gona take care of them... those f**king turtle eggs poachers, u better watch out... if i ever find out u tat u did any injustice to my dear turtles... i gona... i gona... sigh, come to think of i can't do shyt... im on the other side of the sea... *looks at the land to air homing missile proped up bside my computer table....* come to think of it, mayb i can ;p *evil laugh*

on a happier note... we have decided to visit taman negara instead, on a 3 day 2 nite trip ;p well, lets jus hope tat it dun rain cats and dogs when we are trekking... den it wud jus wash away all our enthusiam wif it... anyways, i'll jus sit around and be a good boy till i get further notice from my group leader ;p till then....

Turtle Conservation

2006-11-21T21:49:00.000+08:00

yeah, you read it right the first time, its turtle conservation... tats wat i think - still trying to get permission la tu - im gona do for my elective next year: saving the ass of some miserable-sexual-dysfunctional-always-running-away-from-us-evil-human's-wierd
-liking-of-so-called-exotic-food turtles... hahahaha hopefully this heroic escapade is done in Pulau Redang, Terrenganu, and if so, i will be so looking forward to it *carefully packs mines into bag - blast those evil bastards when they try to dig into the eggs im protecting!!! hahahaha die evil humans, die!!!!! - , along wif sniper scope for surveillence purposes* ;p however...... *dramatic pause* if things doesn't turn out as we expected it to, we might end up in some unknown 'pulau' in melaka (or at least i have never heard of that place la... i mean, melaka got 'pulau's wan meh???) *are melaka turtles distant relatives of terrenganu's... hrm... i wonder...*

anyways, it means tat by the time our new semester starts, i will have ample knowledge on turtles and turtle conservation (and hopefully killed enuf evil bastards to earn a medal of honour) to put my frens to shame!!! and hopefully, my kind gesture will have saved the lives of a whole new generations of new turtles to come!!! yeah!!! but then again... its still like a few months to go before my electives *reluctantly takes mines and sniper scope out from bag... shrugs...*

Break In

2006-11-14T02:37:00.000+08:00

13/11/20006, bside overseas' restaurant... my fren's car was broken in and our bags (alvin's/car owner, seb's and mine)were stolen... his front and back door's window was broken and the whole car ransacked... the bloody idiot even tried to steal the built-in radio but luckily he was too noob to do it, or mayb he jus ran out of time to break it out... i lost around rm1000++ worth of valuable - my MD player RM1000++ in retail price + memories from japan (i bought it when i was an exchange student in jap) which is of coz priceless, my deck of red rider bicycle cards which i always use to do card tricks (still in good condition mind you...) + deck guard, which totals up to RM70++, my competition dart set which by the way, which is of my lucky colour blue and weighs 21g (21 is my lucky number) + darts sharperner RM60++, my beloved's harry potter book (order of the phoenix) priceless, which are all, somehow to add to my misery were in my fav quicksilver imitation fake leather bag... dude... serious badluck man... our only consolation is tat my fren, alvin, is able to claim his car's insurance for the damages to his car due to the break in... we actually felt abit guilty as if we had had the decency of actually bringing our bags down, o at least put our bags in his car boot, this might not have happen at all... sigh... well wats done is done... and when he went to report the break in, we were told by the police tat we were not alone, there were several other break ins for the past few weeks at the same place... in fact, sm1 was actually mugged b4 too!!! god, i dun even feel safe at all now... its suddenly so dangerous in this lil place called sri petaling... may the damn idiot who broke into my frens car and stole our stuff burn in hell!!!

Waiting

2006-11-12T23:31:00.000+08:00

waiting... waiting for sm1... patiently ;p its 23.36, 12/11/06...

a fren once told me that he hated waiting... he hated the feelings of waiting... but i think we shud be happy about it, coz at least, we have something to wait for, something to look forward to ;p dun we? so lets jus wait wif a open heart ;p

Random Toughts

2006-11-12T14:05:00.000+08:00

If you were in a relationship which was bad eventhough u gave everything u had, did everything right and yet u get nothing in return, how would you react in your new relationship? if you were supernice to your ex, but he still treated you like shyt, how will you treat ur current lover? if all your sacrifices were never appreciated and never returned, will you still sacrifice for you new relationship? will you start having inhibitions in your new relationship? will you start treating your new partner with less understanding and love and care and support? will you put in much less than before as you are very afraid you might get hurt again? will you sacrifice much less as you are afraid tat your sacrifices will go unseen and also because you have grown tired of all the pain that always come along with sacrifices, which by now you have wrongfully accused as pain due to not getting due appreciation?

I dun think i will. I think i will still luv my new lover jus as much, mayb even more as im starting afresh. I noe tat i will still sacrifice everything tat is needed as i noe tat everyone is different and tat i shud not let my new partner suffer for the fault of my ex. i am very sure that i do not wish to regret in the future tat i did not treat my new breath of life with all the care and love from the bottom of my heart due to some other ppls' stupid mistake...... I think i will not be changed...... i think, i will still love jus as much, sacrifice jus as much, care jus as much, and give jus as much...... mayb even more...... i guess, this is wat you call love ;p

New World

2006-10-07T13:51:00.000+08:00

i jus stepped into a new world yesterday... it feels different... reli very different... it feel like i jus shedded my skin and when the wind touches my new skin *shudders* it feels so different... at times its so refreshing... sometimes it hurts and stings... sometimes... it jus feels like the good old skin i once had... but its already a brand new world... i feel scared at times... lonely... but never alone... hugs and kisses can cure everything... but when its gone... its scary once more... i appreciate the new lease of life; a new chance at everything once more; the need to work hard for everything once more - starting form step 1 and slowing walking up the stairs, straight to the top and even further... i felt tat i changed... im sure i did... the new skin means more den jus a NEW skin... its signifies much much more... i think i jus grew again... i neve tot i could grow anymore... but i did... i love this new world...i sincerely do... but... the old world i stepped out from... will always remain a part of the chapter of my life... i will always b...

Alot Of Things

2006-10-07T13:38:00.000+08:00

alot of things happen lately... everything happen so fast tat sometimes i wonder if everything is jus a dream... good things, bad things, sad things, funny things, queer things, wierd things, uncanny things... it all jus suddenly come kapaam at my face at such speed tat its pain is more den enuf to tell me that its all real... very real... life sucks... i never deny tat... it always has... its a matter of whose life sucks less... thats wat makes every1s life different... to make it even more distict, it is how we perceive all these things tat makes our life even more different... some look at everything in an optimistic way - there is always some good in everything... even those bad things... some look at life in an extremely pessimistic way - everything is a bad thing... *sic*... some... jus couldn't care less - wth-oh-nvm-shrugs-lackadasical attidude... so wat am i? wat kind of person am i? im a bit of the optimistic and jus couldn't care less kinda guy... 50 50 i guess... i can always reason all worries away, look at all the bright side of everything and give a good laugh at anything at all... but sometimes, when times get really hard... all i need is to tell sm1 about it and poof all my worries and heart ache would b gone (thanks HAMSTER!!! u da NOT so usual hamster la!!! da BEST!!!) i guess this is how life goes... abit of everything to spice things up... and i can only live life 1ce so wat the heck, lets not regret anything!!! cowabanga!!! *eek, damn random*

Got "Tapao"ed

2006-09-08T11:12:00.000+08:00

sigh.... yesterday, i got tapaoed in pool. it was for our imu cup match against the sem5..... and i got tapaoed nicely. yeah the person up against me is my neighbour... lol, he is good but dude, i got tapaoed.... and i even acciddentally hit the cue off the table.... something oni a noob wud do.... god.... y does all of this have to happen in 1 go........ in a competition summore....... it mus b coz i cut my hair......... so short............ i hate u hairdresser!!!! i HATE u!!!! sob sob.......

Love At First Sight

2006-09-08T10:48:00.000+08:00

have you ever look at some1 of the opposite sex and at that particular moment realise that he or she is THE one? have you ever meet sm1 of the opposite sex that after one glance and your heart is fluttering? dude...... love at first sight.... some debated on wether it even exist and if it does will they ever proceed to be a couple. and yeah, it is always those hollywood love stories that revolves around a theme like this..... but seriously, have u ever experience love at first sight? ever? what did you do then when u found your love at first sight? how did it progress? these are some really interesting question that i would like to ask. short blog? neh, jus straight to the point!!!

Softener

2006-09-08T10:46:00.000+08:00

"what the hell do i use that for?" 2 days before, if you would have asked me to use a softener on my laundery, thats most probably the answer which you are gona get from me. no pun intended but who uses a softener dude? i mean i dun even noe how does a softener looks like o how does it smell like wat more y should i use it??? neh, till now i still have no idea what a softener is used for apart from the fact that it will soften the clothes you wash but i DO now noe how is smells like and it smells FREAKING good!!!!!! god, if it wasn't because of my kind gesture to borrow my jacket to 1 of my juniors after our telematch (for her to wear and cover her extremely dirty body full of eggs, flour and marjerine) i will never have known that softener smells SO good!!!! crap, in fact i might have gotten addicted to that smell!!!

when i first got my jacket back - in a cute brown paper bag dotted with teddy bears wearing different kinds of clothings - i was wondering where the hell did that wonderful fragrance came from.... it was not until i took my jacket out, and smelt it did i finally found out that it was MY jacket..... yeah, i have to emphasize: on the MY jacket..... lol, never have any of my clothings smelt so so so FREAKING nice.... i mean i do wash them regularly but oni wif dynamo and well..... dynamo dun exactly have that really nice smell......... and after being introduce to smell of the softener.... it never will ever smell good anymore ;p hahahahaha but dude... softener dude........ the next time i go to do my shopping, i will make sure i buy 1 and erm, yeah i will jus have to phone my junior up to ask her which brand her family uses ;p hahahahahaha

Right or Wrong

2006-09-04T02:29:00.000+08:00

will you do something that is right or do something tat you really wan? this is a really good question. some may answer it easily and have a very definate answer for it. i doubt there is any gray area when discussing on this - purely black and white for the matter...... but seriously have you done anything that is 'right' when your whole body is telling that you should do otherwise? i mean, how do you define 'right'? what IS 'right'? does doing something 'right' means doing something that leaves your consience clear of guilt or does it mean doing something that will leave you with no sorrow but haunted with guilt throughout your whole life? but how sure are you that the things you deem is the 'right' course of action is actually 'right'? will everyone look as your 'right' as their definition of 'right' too?

i have so much tat i wan to talk about.... so very much.... but i aint those type that can just type out or write out wat is in my mind..... voice it out would be much more easier but everytime when it comes to writing it out, it seems that i always forget wat i wan to express............ oh god, my arm is having some allergic reactions..... sigh........... life is so complicated...... will i ever ever get to do wat i really wan? can something that is morall incorrect ever be justified??? im radical, n very open minded and seriously i jus do wat i wan... but.... i think i care too much bout other ppl that i left none for myself.....

sigh, some super duper seriously stupid ramblings............. fuk!!!

Colatteral Damage

2006-08-29T03:12:00.000+08:00

being 1 of the 3 1st aiders in the orientation commitee i did not expect that the 1st person for me to perform 1st aid on would be me myself....dude....and close after tat was my batchmates. both of us seniors....sigh, what has this orientation become? juniors are now trying to outsmart and 'rag' the seniors instead, whom were kind enough to have reduced lots of the real ragging to actually bring REAL games for the entertainment of the juniors during their orientation!!! yeah, and they always say, never bite the hand that feed you - sounds corny and now it IS corny!!!

out of the commotion of having all the junior ruining the most anticipated games (even the seniors were looking forward to c which group would actually win) by throwing their water ammo (btw, the game is called 'counter-strike' which is actually self explanatory rite???) at the seniors, i actually got elbowed by my batchmate under my left eye when she was trying to avoid the water balloons. as a result i now have a cut under my eye and a slight swelling....kwell!!! lol, i nearly scared her to death when she saw me bleeding ;p she looked so so very shocked!!!

my fren, on the other hand, got a water balloon rite at his eye!!! it hit his right eye straight on - bulls eye!!! lucky for him, it was clean water and he got away with just a slight irritation of his right eye.... god blessed him indeed. he might have been blinded!!! those juniors..... i am totally lost of words to describe their total disrespect to their seniors...... sigh, wat have this world turn into.... oh oh, and they also 'accidentally' threw a water ballon onto the head of one of our commitee who was in charge of security!!! god, he was so pissed off that he would have literally wack the mastermind to death if he had found out who the hell he was!!! lucky for the mastermind, he never did find out.....

I'm Back!!!!

2006-08-25T00:47:00.000+08:00

yeah, the title said it all. i'm finally back. and to my surprise alot of things have changed, and alot of other things remained the same..... i found out to my horror that there is another blog, created much later den mine, that has almost the same web address as mine. although honestly speaing, it is not as cool as mine (lol) and at least has some post related to medical practices (unlike mine) i still find it disturbing that there is another site with almost similar name as mine.......dude.........do i not get any protection from the copyright laws??? my url IS suppose to be special you noe....and i ain't feeling no special now....sic.......

on a brighter tone, i found out that my hamster is getting prettier and started posing sexy poses for her own camera....ok i rephrase, it is distressing to find it so but heck, not like this hamster's sudden venture into the sexy pic industry will get me anywhere but still yeah, another change has occured in my life..... and alot of other changes happened too, but now i'm jus too tired to type out, and i dun really care......

Songs

2006-07-06T21:59:00.000+08:00

lately due to the fact that the exam is inching nearer and nearer......i have been playing more and more of my guitar.......mostly oldies......yeah, i have yet to upgrade my repertoire of songs....... but i have also been toying around wif some chords and is thinking of making a short song, hahahaha duno wat the lyrics should sound like........hrm.......mayb i should sing about my pet hamster nia ;p hahahahaha...........erm

TOMORROW EXAM NIA!!!!

2006-07-06T21:56:00.000+08:00

omg....tmr exam, still can't leat this fact sink into my head.....y m i blogging?........y do i do this all the time?.......finally decided to skip anatomy and physiology and jus read pathology and pharmaco.......finished pathology......trying to finish pharmaco..........as of now....i still have 23 lecture notes to cover.......god bless me......pls dun forsake me.........*pray*

hrm.........

2006-06-23T13:51:00.000+08:00

hrm.... so funny, it took me so long to update my post after my summ 2 when in fact i actually posted 3 post on the day b4 summ 2 itself..... dude.......

Good Guy/Bad Guy

2006-06-23T13:38:00.000+08:00

its tiring u noe, to always try to b a good guy. i find it very pretencious..... v fake.... trying to b nice all the time when u dun wish to b..... trying to filter your words and talk nicely when in truth wat u say is not really wat u think.... humans in general are cowards, thats wat i think. they are afraid to b hurt, to b isolated, n much more, a coward to tell the truth and to face it - thats y they always try to b nice, hoping that others will treat them the same....... but to me its jus too plastic.

dun get me wrong. im not against those really good guys, i mean if they are nice and goody bcoz they really r, i m more den happy for them but if they r jus acting it out...... dude..... dunla, dun waste ur time la........ it gets irritating after a while

sm ppl find me obnoxious, coz i say wats on my mind. i dun lock up all my feelings in myself, act goody 2 shoes and tell ppl wat they wan to hear - in simple i jus dun lie. if u dun cut, u dun, and i will tell it straight. thats fine i guess for certain ppl, but wat about on the topic of who is hot n whos not? mayb its a guy thing but im sure every1 on earth noes how to appreciate beautiful things. so wat if i jus blurt out tat: "hey she looks hawt!!! great figure!!! good boobs!!! nice ass!!!." does this make me less a man tat i m meant to be? does this make me more a pervert den all those other guys who think about the same thing in their mind but never ever say it out? fearing that they would b tot as wierd?pervert?horny? dude.......... at least i dare to admit it and express my feelings...........

sigh, i guess this world is all full of pretentious ppl who jus wish to look good, act nice and hopefully being labeled good guys by the public.......... so i guess ppl like me r jus fuked up, shuned by the general public and despised by god himself..........

Overlooked

2006-06-04T20:14:00.000+08:00

my frens car broke down jus now. spent the last 1 hour downstairs helping out........ my precious 1 hour......... i could use it to at least finish my remaining 25 notes. but a fren in need is a fren indeed ;p but i learnt something jus now. nothing is wat it seems.....

everything from the breakdown pointed towards lack of battery..... as in the car's batt jus went kaputt or jus simply drained itself away.... u can't start the car; u can't wind the auto window up again; the alarm gives off funny stacathoic put-puts.... the classic symptoms of battery gone case.

we tried to push and jumpstart the car from 1st gear........ nearly got into an accident. it was quite scary. i was in the driver seat....... my frens, hafiz n suhaimi was pushing the car. the gals was watching. we waited till the coast was clear before pushing the car down the slope in front of Vista B's lobby....... jus when we got the momentum and speed going........ tat bloody red car jus have to reverse out from the parking........... bloody female driver!!! can't even park the car properly on the 1st try n to think that there is so much space on her right n left (god, its vertical parking for god sakes.........) with the car right in front of me, i have to choose either to risk jumpstarting the car n do some bunny hops n if lucky enuf stop inches away from that bloody red SUV or i can opt to take the safe way out and jus step on the break.............. wait........... i can't step on the break, coz lishan had used up the maximan 3 pedal breaks after the car stopped..... (you oni have enuf braking oil left in the system for maximum 3 brakes after the car stopped) so i opted for the safe way out..... its not my car for god sakes......... i pulled the hand brakes.......... it screeched to a stop much to the relieve of every1. hahahaha hafiz asked if i manage to jump start it........ i was like, i luv to but i do not have few thousand ringgit to spare if i knock into that SUV ;p

while as the story goes........ we gave up, parked the car and went to the guardhouse to ask them to clamp lishan's car as her window was down. the guard came over to check n FOUND out that the bloody socket for the cars battery was loose!!!! he tighten it n the car is up and running again.......... and to think all of us there didn't even notice that bloody socket.............. goodness gracious.............

Moral of the day: never b too sure of anything as nothing is wat it seems........... serves as a good teaching for me n my frens who will b doctors one day. we cannot risk diagnosing the patients wrongly as quite alot of disease have almost similar sign n symptoms...... god bless for the lesson well learnt today...........

hrm.......... posted the most blog on the day before my killer exam............. y m i doing this? .........

DAISY

2006-06-04T13:33:00.000+08:00

omg......... i m so so so watching DAISY but y in the hell that all the trackers tat i downloaded doesn't work.......... if thats the case........... thats it la, tmr i will spend rm8 to get the DVD!!!!

URGE....

2006-06-04T09:45:00.000+08:00

ARGH........ i WANT to jus throw away all my lecture notes; i WANT to hop on a bus and jus go somewhere, anywhere, i dun care. jus somewhere far from my apartment room right now. yes, tmr is my summ2 exam. wat the heck, i jus wan to NOT be here rite now.............

its now 10am, if i go to genting rite now, i will still b in time for at least 4-5 hours of outdoor theme park, and the whole nite of arcade gaming, nite time archery and........... stargazing...........

if i go to port dickson, i will definately still b in time for some swimming, beach volley, sand castle making.............n lots lots more.............

if i got to melaka rite now, i WILL be in time to go to that snow world smwhere in that city and still have time to eat dinner at that extremely delicious portugis village seafood restaurant jus bside the seaside.....................

N after all these, i WILL still have enuf time to come back tmr for my summ2 exam........screw it.......i still have like 29 more sparkling clean lecture notes to cover.......... BUT the fact that there is no1 to accompany me on these crazy trips of mine............ i think i will jus stay home la........... coz it wun b of fun if u jus feel more lonely when u reach there........... ARGH!!!!

Passion For Piano

2006-06-03T15:17:00.000+08:00

i reali shouldn't b here blogging. exam is on monday n i got like 32 more lecture notes to cover for the 1st time....... i m like so dead......... but tats not the point here. i might be dead on monday but i m happy to noe that i will have a fren to play piano on my grave when i m finally 6 feet under......

nothing really appeals to me more than a gal wif brains, gal who can sing and a gal who can play musical instruments (piano the best)...... its crazy but these gals r like the most attactive gals there is out there!!! i duno, i'll like go crazy when i c gals with these abilities..... its like i wun even give shit when an extremely hot gal enters the room but if a gal enters the room n starts playing piano...... thats it man........ she will instantly get my attention n i will b like the most attentive audience she will ever have ;p take my sassy gal for example (korean movie). i m like so crazy over that scence where she plays canon in D for that male lead........omfg..............so 'chun'ted!!!

i like musical instrument....... when i was young, my mum sent me for piano classes but i simply hate those taugeh......... damn taugeh damn irritating, dahla small so many variety pulak; jumping here n there making my head spin oni......... so i hate all my piaono lessons......... i play my memorising the positioning of my fingers, never caring about the taugehs........... i guess thats when everything gets boring. so what if i can play the whole song without refering to the scores when i couldn't play any other songs which i cannot read the taugeh........... i never practice at home cos i simply hate those taugehs....... my mum would force me to learn n play according to taugehs............... den i simply stop............ after 1 month of 2 times a week piano class i simply couldn't take it.......... my mum couldn't either, n i believe my piano instructor wouldn't complain otherwise........ i didn't noe how much i have lost........... i never really regretted stopping my piano classes, i was more than relieved to be taken of that rigourous eat taugeh, speak taugeh, dream taugeh kinda lifestyle............

if i were to b given a chance to go back in time, i wud change my attitude back then........ i wun jus speak, eat n dream taugeh..... i wud drink, play, think taugeh too if thats wat i need to b able to play good piano. but no point crying over spilt milk.......... after this summ2 exam, i'm gona find sm1 who is willing to teach me piano......... n this time even if i have to change my lifestyle to taugeh i would do it...........

*at time of blogging this, cape of storm played by my fren is being played continuously in the background......... i feel really left out......*

my oni dream, as opposed to have the gal of my dream playing my fav song on piano for me is for me to play her fav piano song for her..............

AFS Returnee Gathering

2006-05-28T17:31:00.000+08:00

It has been 4 years. 4 years since i last met all my exchange student frens. yesterday was the 1st time we met up again after so long. n ironically its the 1st time AFS organised a gathering for us returnees. i met lots of ppl. young n old. some went for their xchange even b4 i was born, some jus a few years back n some jus came back. age might have set us apart, makes us look different - graying hair, slouching back; spiky hair, bling blings - but every1 of us there had a fire of enthusiasm in our eyes tat day. we r all connected by 1 fact, by 1 trip, by 1 exchange. we look at each other with knowing eyes; listen wif knowing nods; exchanges stories like we were young all over again.... nothing can beat being an AFSer........ nothing

ppl asked me if i ever regretted going on tat xchange. if i ever regretting putting my studies on hold. o if i ever regretted not taking up all those scholarships that were available for me den; of letting go of all those opportunities. it was never a hard decision. it is as simple as i had always put it. i never doubted - i wan to be on tat plane, i wan to b an AFSer. if i were to be given a chance to go back in time; even if i were to b given god's power to change 1 thing, i wud never never change my decision to go Japan.

all these feelings.... i dun think any1 wud understand. but yesterday, i found a group of ppl, who share the same feelings as i do, the same aspiration as i have, i found life long frens, tat i wud never have made if i was not an AFS returnee.....

we talked alot yesterday. we learn from our chairman (another returnee from NZ a long long time ago) all the relevant histories of AFS, about our organisation, about wat had happen, the changes n our dreams. we discussed on ways to reach out to other returnees, on how to make others have a better experience, on how to spread our joy to others so tat other can experience it themselves... we talked about many many more.

i was asked to give a speech. to talk about how my trip changed me. i wasn't prepared for it. i wasn't told about it b4 hand. but i guess all AFSers have to b prepared for the unexpected - tat much we were taught. my speech was short but i m glad every1 enjoyed it. i enjoy sharing wif others my experience abroad but most important of all, i enjoy sharing wif others, my unique experience as an AFSer, as an exchange student. Its v v different........ n i luv it.

Nantoka

2006-05-24T18:06:00.000+08:00

i took this during the summer break camp. sunset

Mo sannen kan gurai boku wa nihongo wo syaberarenakatta. ima boku no nihongo wa cho heta desu. demo, boku wa nihon to nihongo ga daisuki dakara, wasureru wake nai deshyo. dakedo, boku wa tadashi no sentence wo suru koto wa mo muzukashikunatteiru. dandan dandan, boku wa mo nihongo wo kaku koto wo dekinakunarimasu kamo shirenai. dame da yo ne. jdrama wo miru toki, daibubun no kaiwa wa wakaru dakedo, wakaranai no bubun wa mo ippai desu... dou shiyou kana? hontou ni mo nihongo wo dandan wasureru no?

its been a long time since i last spoke in jap, or wrote in jap for the matter. it has been 3 years since i came back from japan after staying there for a 1 year cultural exchange stint.n it was a 1 year i can never forget. the wonderful times i had there; the joy of learning japanese; the unforgettable memories i had wif my japanese frens; my own trip to tokyo and much much more... so much that at times i wonder if it was jus a fraction of my imagination, a dream that was too real that it was stuck in my mind even after i have waken up so many times... but its real orite. so real that it feels like as if it was only yesterday tat i took my 1st public bath in the Tokyo Youth Centre!!

being on the plane for 8 hours really didn't dampen our spirits. all of us exchange student were pretty excited when we got onto the plane at 9pm at KLIA. on the plane, some of us were too excited to sleep that they practically chatted among each other till late at nite, while others, like me, went to sleep - trying to act cool (maintain image ma ;p ) and hoped that by sleeping, the dreaded 8 hours tat seperate us from japan wud jus fly by.

when i woke up, 8 hours did pass, and nothing beat having a sunrise welcoming us into the Country Of The Rising Sun! that was my 1st time ever withnessing a sunrise from a plane...

to be continued.....

p/s: as i promised, this is my 1st installment to my experience as an cultural exchange student to japan for 1 year... watch out for more ;p

the famed tokyo disneyland. yay!!!

F*king 2 Face!!!

2006-05-21T05:25:00.000+08:00

i fuking hate ppl who act like a fuking 2 headed snake!!! fuking hypocrites!!! saying something else in 1 second n den so totally changed their stand once they turn their backs; never doing wat they say but force other ppl to follow theirs; constantly changing sides n always going for the winning team is jus so fuked up!!! fuk u!!! get a life fukers!!! u fuking hypocrites r the cowards of the cowards!!! the low downs of the low downs!!! the lowest of the lowest lifeforms!!! the mother fukers of the mother fukers!!!

its jus so infuriating to noe tat such cowardice actually exist in our life. being a coward is acceptable for fear is always the pushing force behind us all, n cowardice is one of its many metamorphosis. but cowardice as it is is 1 thing, using cowardice as mask for being a hypocritical bastard is another!!! its so different that to say that it is the two side of a coin is a serious undersatement, that is unless u c the coin as having the thickness of the Great Wall of China in lenght......

fukers who have the fuking hyprocrite word stamp rite on their face r jus the bane of life!!! their pactically have the hate-me-i-m-hypocrite aura radiating from their body!!! their actions r so fuking fuked up n have never failed to hurt n devastate the lifes of so many ppl around them that to burn in hell is jus being too easy on them!!! tying them to the back of a bike n dragging them at high speed around town; hanging them upside down n putting hundreds of candle jus below their head; tying them wif a bungee rope n pushing them down the KLCC a hundred times and lots of other ways of torturing them is jus simply not sufficient to appease the hatred these fukers planted in us(me)!!!

dun get me wrong. i was taught to forgive since young. my religion practically preaches forgiveness. forgiveness in its own way, is the ultimate torturing technique that little can attain and it definately deals a jugular blow no other kill-em techniques can achieve on those fukers!!! (IMPORTANT: my religion preaches forgiveness as in SERIOUSLY forgiving them!!! i jus think that it is a cool torturing technique, tats all. ITS MY INTERPRETATION!!!) actually by e time i press the 'publish post' button i wud have forgiven them. my transaction period to forgiveness, as many frens have put it is ridiculously short...... but DUNOT get it wrong, i HATE hypocracy!!! n this will NEVER change!!!

Blue Rose

2006-05-20T02:16:00.000+08:00

i forgotten to mention bout the blue rose in my previous blog about my bdae. it was the 1st rose i ever receive in my short span of 22 years. n to add to the significance, it is from a gal. hahahaha dun get it wrong, it really means nothing, but its special coz its from a gal n its the 1ST time for me ;p hahaha liying, as alex put it.........u took my 1st!!! sob sob...... my 1st.... hahahaha, but i like the flower alot. its ironic but i have been a florist for like 10 years, dealing wif flowers daily, sending flowers to lucky recepients whose special sm1 is kind enuf to buy em flowers. but never have i ever receive flowers b4. i have customers coming back to my mum's shop n thanking us for a job well done and telling us how much they appreciate our work but never have i ever gotten flowers b4. not from any1. hahaha, i guess every1 of my frens find it a waste of money n time to give me flowers considering that i m a guy who SELLS flowers ;p hahahaha so liying, i guess ur ignorance is a blessing to me no? thanks ya. it might be jus 1 stalk of blue rose to u, but to me it means alot ;p

22sai no Tanjoubi

2006-05-19T12:04:00.000+08:00

damn, i m now another year closer to my grave... sad, but after celebrating my 22nd birthday, i guess it ultimately sealed this fact. even if i dun, time still goes as it goes, n i will, still be, 1 year closer to death. saying tat, birthday this years is great. aint really the awesome, cool, unforgettable great but still it is something worth remembering.

i'll blog down in brief wat happened:
i started getting birthday wishes since 11.59pm on the 17th of may, and it keeps flowing in till e next day - my birthday. on e bus to seremban hospital (we were having our nursing week), i got more wishes and e whole bus of frens sang me a birthday song. when i reached seremban, i got a piece of choco banana cake from my fren yinn khurn and patrick. it was nice, both the cake and the fact that they remembered. on e way to our wards, a small group of frens started to sing me birthday song again ;p hahahaha, guess all of a sudden, birthday song is the song of the day eh ;p during lunch break, a fren of mine, liying, think up of a really cute birthday song wif alex and she sang it to me on our way back to her ward (i was visiting her ward and thanks lots liying, that song is really cute ;p hahahaha but i din get a kiss from a cute gal wor, how?) after we finish our hospital visit and after the long long ride back to sri petaling, a few of my frens (yinn khurn, patrick, alex, chee liang, yip, teck seng, sin yin, liying, chia chee and teck seng) celebrated my birthday at Secret Recepie and bought me a chicken cordon bleu and a chocolate cake (initially yinn khurn wanted to buy me the irish lamb stew, but its like so expensive so neh, decided to order a cheaper meal when he is not around, but still......they paid for it ;p ) THEN it is the HIGHLIGHT of the day DOTA!!!! yeah, the guys went for a 4 hour DOTA birthday session wif me at point X!!! hahahaha, i noe i noe, its crazy and stupid but den for a guy who likes DOTA this much, its really a great bdae celebration!!! When i got back, my housemate for 1/2 a year, gave me a tiramisu cake!!! niways thanks alot to all my frens who helped make my bdae such a great day!!! THANKS!!!!

dude..........seriously, the thought of another year towards death......its daunting ;p

Wesak Day

2006-05-13T16:53:00.000+08:00

1 n a half hour sleep. thats wat i got. waking up at 7 am, wash up, rushed down to my frens waiting car n off i went to volunteer at Subang Jaya Buddhist Association. that place was packed full with devotees... o shud i say, mostly, 1 day buddhists...

i spent the nite b4 DotAing at e CC near my place n as usual it did not end till 5am, so when i was volunteering in e temple e next day, i was like only half awake... initially it felt like a dream, all e ppl walking here n there, bz wif their offerings, praying, taking care of their children, volunteers running here n there, kids running off to e playground bside e temple. but as usual, volunteering work always perks me up. by 8am, i was fully awake n was bz clearing all e vases - carrying all e flowers outside for devotees who jus came to give their offerings- making way for more flowers... there was a never-ending line of devotess that day... it seems that suddenly every1 is a buddhist... every1 suddenly wans to pray... every1 suddenly have so much time... every1 seems to b so devoted...

it has been a long time since i last did any volunteering work o any community services watsoever. i like volunteering works. it has a feel good factor that no other activities can provide... not that i m doing it coz it looks good and feel good, but jus tat i like helping ppl. guess thats e reason y im studying medic now...

Fossilised?

2006-05-10T01:06:00.000+08:00

neh, this blog is not fossilised, at least not yet... lately i din really post anything in my blog. 1 of e reason being tat i was bz... not sure wat was i bz wif coz it is definately not academically related o anything of tat sort... alot of things cropped up. there was this DotA tournament which i entered, e women self-defense campaign which i have to help organise, meeting up wif old school frens, attending talks on Buddhism n lots more which i jus can't recall.

everthing passed by in a blur; 1 after another - ending as fast as it has started - out of e blue, a week passed. funny. but i guess that is how life present itself to every1 of us: a continuous, neverending flow of time. every single second passed is every second gone; every breath taken is every breath less. extremely sophisticated and yet ridiculously simple at the same time tat we pay no attention to it and tend to take life for granted as we can never grasp the actual meaning of it...

there r lots i tat i wan to blog about. wan but not need. guess tats y i never get about to blogging it. i wanted to blog about my times in japan, about mans cowardice n hypocracy, about my dreams and wat i despise... i wonder if i will ever get to it. is this blog on e verge of fossilisation? guess the fact tat e shoutbox's server is down hints alot...

OMFGWTH!!! Its Cannon In D!!!

2006-05-03T12:08:00.000+08:00

ohmyfukinggodwatthehell!!! if this is not a music genius i duno who is...

sample letter to jerry c from me (if i plan to send 1):

damn u jerry,

i think u r a fuking god damn it freaking good guitarist. u r such a genius that i wud do ur house chores for... erm... lets c... 1 day? if u can teach me how to play tat!!! i reali reali hate u n i curse u till there is no curse in this whole wide world that can curse u more (coz u r a bloody good guitarist) but pls teach me how to play this piece on electric guitar... ok if u wun i will burn down ur house, hack ur website, break ur guitar n n........ jus bloody teach me!!!

damn u again,
tryingtobeadoctorwheninoeitishard

p/s: this is SO gona tipu all the xiao mei meis ;p hahahaha *evil laugh*

Labour Day

2006-05-02T15:59:00.000+08:00

dear fuzzies wuzzies,

sorry that papa is not around when u all visited...i noe i noe, its labour day, n papa promised to show u around my blog rite? ur visit turned out nothing, papa feels bad...papa is a v bz man u noe...life is hard as an adult... working on labour day is such a pain in the ass... oops... sori, bout e ass thing...oops, there i go again... papa is getting old... so papa is posting a new blog now, to tell all e fuzzies wuzzies of wat happened to papa... yeah... papa was 'papa'napped to workville in jb... horrendous place i tell u fuzzies wuzzies... in workville, every1 works every single day... even on labour day!!! they work so hard everyday that working hard is no longer working hard... omg, its called working!!! poor papa works his ass (oops...) off during labour day while other papas around e world stayed back, laze their ass (oops again...) around, sit their big fat ass (oops...nvm, fuzzies wuzzies nowadays mus be edducated to noe wat ass is... no, no!!! its no profanity, its part of ur body!!!) on their beloved its-mine-n-if-u-sit-on-it-i-will-kill-u sofa and played wif their prized rectangular box of wires wif buttons protruding up (i believe fuzzies wuzzies call it controller...) while eating pizzas, drink beers and watching e lastest football highlights...

to make things worse fuzzies wuzzies... papa got lots of smses from his frens asking him out!!! 2 DotA invitations, 1 dinner invitation n 1 FINE DINE invitation!!! all on labour day... it makes papa's already fragile heart ache with pain none in e whole wide world wud understand... not even fuzzies wuzzies... so here i m fuzzies wuzzies, back in kl, back in vista, siting on my trusted and beloved bright red sit-wrongly-n-u-will-fall office chair, typing my 1ce in a life time nice and profanity free (really fuzzies wuzzies, ass is NOT a profanity, accept it, its part of us!!!) blog... who says that i oni write angry blogs dotted wif profanities... papa have a soft side too!!!

luv,
papa

disclaimer: no1, i mean no 1, shud ever use any part of this blog, process it or quote it in watsoever matter so as to remind me of my soft side and NO, e fuzzies wuzzies r NOT my bastard fuzzies wuzzies of my uncountable flings outside, n god no i do NOT have flings wif fuzzies wuzzies... oni their mistresses *wink* ;p N this blog does NOT contain profanities!!! ASS!!!

F*kin Prejudices

2006-04-27T02:56:00.000+08:00

every1 judges, every1 is prejudice, every1 is human........yes, its NOT very hard for me to understand that, not that i care o have little understanding that human r NOT perfect but sometimes ppl tend to b v prejudice against certain things. call it sexism, racism, ageism, anything, u can either call it degradation o pure prejudice to its extreme. when have u all actually walk tru a room without having sm1 assessing u on ur appearance, gait, or anything tat they deem is possible of granting them more information about u, o to put it in a more crude way, any other ways of sizing u up so as to fulfil their extremelyperverted mind.........everybody's mind r perverted. no, i do not mean perverted as in 'pien tai' pervert but pervert as in lead astray from the correct conduct.....every1 judges, trust me, dun b a hypocrite and start telling me no u dun, coz YES u do!!! its a matter of how u judge tat matters, but still u judge!!!

for me, i'm always e object of prejudice!!! yeah, so wat if i spot an extremely 'in' hairstyle, dye my hair n looks like an ah beng???!!! does this make me less a medic student than all those goody two shoers who comb their hair nicely like all nice, good, guai jai students r suppose to???!!! i mean not that its a fashion faux in e academic society to sport 'in' hairstyle and actually have a fashion sense......not in an ideal world at least but knock knock, this is e real world!!! i DO get STARES, CRITIQUES n 'COMMENTS' for my fashion sense!!!

its all too common for me to have ppl trying to link me to all those school dropouts and good-for-nothing unfilial child that never make it good in our (his) society...... how many times have i actually gone tru conversations like this:

f*kin prejudice ppl: so wat u doing now? (somehow our conversation in hell
always starts here...)
me : studying medicine......
f*kin prejudice ppl: MEDICINE!!! reali???!!! hahaha u look more like an art
course undergrade (seems like they have little respect for art
undergrades.......f*kers!!!)
me : oh ok..... (by now i have understand that i mus never never ask y, o i will
regret it dearly)
f*kin prejudice ppl: so wat did u get for spm (dun ask me y but they always ask
for spm results 1st........ mayb coz it got lots of subjects in
it???)
me : straight 1As.......
f*kin prejudice ppl: REALI!!! (u shud c their expression...... smhow all f*kin
prejudice ppl have e same expression when we come to this
point......)
me : ...... (after countless experience i find that by not saying anything ends
this conversation faster........)
f*kin prejudice ppl: wat bout pmr? (smhow as if e expression n questions aint
insulting enuf, adding salt 2 e wound seem to b their
expertise......)
me : err, straight As too......
f*kin prejudice ppl: wow, tats cool (u shud c how plastic they were.......) hahaha,
u definately do not look like a straight A student....... (get wat
i mean by expert in salt rubbing......)

conversation like these r a bane in my life......trust me when i say that i get this conversation more than often....... usually if i m lucky i wud escape in time from enduring more prejudices.......but if not, i wud have them disecting my every part of academic and extra curricular life, followed by questions as to y i m not jpa scholar (if i m in e mood i wud actually explain y but if not, i wud jus play along n jus say tat e government hate chinese......) somehow, in life i found out that ppl like me r never associated wif straight As o president of clubs o even deputy head boy of premier schools...... mayb i jus shudn't have been those...... mayb they r rite...... but their prejudices jus makes me realise that i have to prove that slackers like me whose too-in-for-you fashion sense does NOT allow u to dictate how my life is suppose to b, so get a life f*kers!!! stop being so f*kin prejudice!!!!

Stupid @#$%^&*() HTML Template!!!

2006-04-25T01:10:00.000+08:00

i jus spent like 2 hours trying to cut and paste and hopefully in e end make my own skin for my new blog here and it all went down e drain..................somehow i did something wrong. duno wat, m not realli that html literate to figure out and is still cranking my brains to make it work.........i could have made things much more easier by jus downloading a skin from www.blogskin.com but nooooo, e intellectually curious side of me jus wish to carry on and modify other ppl's skin and paste in in my blog..........brings more pain and waste more time but heck, i have no idea y but i m actually still at it............i guess this is wat gals usually call it: a man's ego........i call it stupidity.........

on e happier-coz-it-has-to-be-happier note, i jus finished my summative 1 exam this morning. n i jus tot i saw my whole life flash before me................in other words, as in not to b too subtle so that every1 can understand......its freaking hard. not hard as in hard hard but hard as in tricky hard.......ok add some of the lecturer-made-a-fool-out-of-us hard to that tricky hard too....and a tiny bit of its-hard-coz-u-din-study-but-DotA-evyday hard..........bottomline........hard...........

A total slacker, not really interested in studying but always A'ces in exam ...wink, Dota freak, a bully (to some people..huehuhe..)................

2006-04-20T18:38:00.000+08:00

Hrm, wat is so so wrong wif that description above?(apart from slackers 'A'cing exams....but den again, slackers DO 'A'ce exams, so..............well thats not the point here......) From a glance, nothing much. More of a description of a guy trying to show off his 'A'ness but it is where I get this description that makes it all so wrong.......Some how, his 'royal 'A'ness' practically screwed up the whole definition of 'slacker', 'freak' and 'bully'....and alot more too, but...... since I m the good guy I always am, I'll keep the rest to myself and save his butt from further spanking (or until i figure out that i M extremely bored AND angry wif the world AND have nothing better to do den to further degrade another fellow hypocratic fren of mine.......)

oooh, I can c wat u r thinking; i DO have better things to do like saving my ARSE by actually reading those xtremely thick medical textbooks i have stack up bside my comp to pass my summative 1 exam next monday den to make fun of other ppl's low self esteem (hey, those books cost me nearly 600 bucks man.......yeah, medic is an xpensive course, not so that its those bloody publishers tat made our life so damn miserable by cranking up the prices of those bloody thick books!!! yeah, u guys better dun show me ur namecards in e future!!! i'll 'CHARGE' u guys back!!!!)

now, back to the story. which part of slacker does he not understand? o freak o bully? ok, so mayb he doesn't own a dictionary and yeah so mayb he lives in his own imaginary life where slackers study like hell everyday, dotA freak do NOT play dotA every single day (when i say NOT everyday i mean once in a blue moon kinda thing???and blue moon being 1ce b4 exam and 1ce after????) and the oni thing he ever bullied r his medical books..........trust me, he IS a BIG bully........those books suffered much under his hands.........i PITY those books..........

its NOT that i habour any hate o watsoever at his total lack of self expression skills but i totally hate it that he jus messed up my whole life...........i no longer noe where i stand in this society - i mean if he is a slacker, that wud make me sh!t; if he is a dotA freak, that wud make me an addict.......not a term i wud like to associate wif myself but hey, he jus kicked me down the ranking if u noe wat i mean.............NO, i m NOT a bully!!! lucky me.........

01:05 am In The Morning

2006-04-18T01:06:00.000+08:00

It v obvious from the title that it is 01:05 am in the morning, as in the time i m blogging this. But thats not the point. I m of now, jus 1 episode shy of finishing the whole season 1 of House M.D. (at the same time beating my own personal record by finishing 21 episodes in jus 2 days). A v nice series i mus admit. V intelligent, briliantly directed. Most of the scenes are v real - naming a few wud include those neverending operation scenes, lumbar punctures that pops out in almost every single episodes and so on and so forth. Apart from that, come to think of it, you really can learn how to be sacarstic jus by watching (Dr.) House wash down his team of doctors. Its a mus see for all medical students and trust me, u do find a sense of satisfaction when you actually understand bits and pieces of wat they are all babling about - all those differential diagnosis and blah blah.

Hahaha, now now, dun get fooled, i m definately not blogging this to promote my latest drama interest. I M blogging this however, to rant on my indiscipline that caused me to not read my already stacking up thick pile of lecture notes but instead aggravate my already aggravated House addiction by watching 1 episodes after another, even after telling myself that i HAVE to start studying now o i WILL die terribly in my summative exam next week!!! Such lack of discipline is unheard off.......of course not uncommon wif me, but den again, y M i doing this? The fact tat i m a medic student does not singularly gave me rights to ignore my studies and indulge myself wif an extremely nice doc dramas........or does it.......well, i m however currently giving the excuse that it will help wif my familiarising wif my future work life - i mean not that i m going to have such dramatic cases in the future o watsoever- but den again, hey, my last episode of House M.D. jus finished downloading........well off i go again ;p

CrazyMedicalStudent_RunningOnBorrowedTime

2006-04-16T16:24:00.000+08:00

Even after typing in the title of my first post, i still can't believed that my old buddy, old pal, old chump, old chap, old fren fong - 1/3 of the infamous 3 musketeers of English College's 2001 alumni - actually conned me into making a blog here..........Its amazing that 3 years in a dull and extremely boring university in Perak (for privacy sakes - and old times sakes nontheleast - i shall withheld the name of this seemingly self-proclaimed prestigious univeristy that has done little but none in upgrading our country's already healthy petroleum industry.......ironic is the essense here.....) has done little to dull his blunt sense of persuasion skills and cunningness!!! I guess i did did a mistake - and lived to suffer from it - the very instance i msged him on MSN!!! After all the ramblings and self blaming i have done whilst typing this post, i find that i have no choice but to make sure that this blog prosper...............Welcome then, to CrazyMedicalStudent_RunningOnBorrowedTime!!!

P/s: time is well spent when u ignore my blogs

CrazyMedicalStudent_RunningOnBorrowedTime

Dissapointment...

Fools...

Lonely

P*SSED!!!

Complicated

Like Shyt!!!

Something I did during my Free Time

Great Teacher Onizuka {GTO}

Saving Turtles NO More......

Turtle Conservation

Break In

Waiting

Random Toughts

New World

Alot Of Things

Got "Tapao"ed

Love At First Sight

Softener

Right or Wrong

Colatteral Damage

I'm Back!!!!

Songs

TOMORROW EXAM NIA!!!!

hrm.........

Good Guy/Bad Guy

Overlooked

DAISY

URGE....

Passion For Piano

AFS Returnee Gathering

Nantoka

F*king 2 Face!!!

Blue Rose

22sai no Tanjoubi

Wesak Day

Fossilised?

OMFGWTH!!! Its Cannon In D!!!

Labour Day

F*kin Prejudices

Stupid @#$%^&*() HTML Template!!!

A total slacker, not really interested in studying but always A'ces in exam ...*wink*, Dota freak, a bully (to some people..huehuhe..)................

01:05 am In The Morning

CrazyMedicalStudent_RunningOnBorrowedTime

A total slacker, not really interested in studying but always A'ces in exam ...wink, Dota freak, a bully (to some people..huehuhe..)................