Friday, July 20, 2007

P*SSED!!!

~ oh i'm so pissed lately... everything seems to be going against me... but to top it off, alot of things seem to be getting on my nerves... i wonder why...

~ it seems like i have the same old problem all over again... people seem to judge me by my appearance and presume my characters through things that i do... nobody seem to really care to figure out who i really am... its just, im whoever they thing i am... what kinda shit IS that? just because i DotA alot, rarely attend lectures, dun care shit if i am hanging out with the coolest people or doing the hippest things in town doesn't make me a hopeless and irresponsible fool... i don't do things just because it makes me looks cool, or hang out with the most popular group just to rub off their popularity... dude... that is like so plastic... i hate hipocracy and what less being fake!!!

~ i know very well that i told my cheerleading peeps (not even sure if i should still call them that) that i can't attend the cheerleading practice since i am sick and yet go DotA the very same night... but do you guys not understand that DotA does not involve strenuous workout nor do i need to run around, jump around and sweat till i die? to me DotA is a form of relaxation, i am sick; slept for around the WHOLE day, can't i at least go release some stress... does that make me an irresponsible person? trying to 'relax' when i am sick is uncool? fine!!! then i am an uncool person... so be it!!! i dun f**king care if im uncool but i am NOT f**king irresponsible!!! dun ever say that shit heads!!! if being sick and trying to at least make a bit of a fun out of it is irresponsible then there are a f**king lot of irresponsible people out there!!!

~ dun ever ever try to judge me for what i did without even asking me the reason first... be clever for once and try to at least understand the situation abit before you actually try to be a critique!!! i didn't know shit that the next day will have another cheerleading practice!!! in case you all did not know, i'm STILL sick and i have promised my aunt to run an errand for her that day since like a LONG time ago... and THAT makes me an undedicated bastard??? F**K you!!! if i am an undedicated person where the hell was i when not even one shitheads are willing to be in the cheerleading group in sem3??? WHERE??? where are all those 'dedicated' person when we need them??? all f**king quit on us... we had to beg you guys, run around like dogs, make promises, find people, come out with out own choreograph since no one is willing to help a losing and memberless team!!! WHERE ARE ALL THE DEDICATED BASTARDS BACK THEN!!! i stayed on since the first day i promised to be in it!!! i run around to beg for people to join!!! we need to get seniors to convince all those 'dedicated' people!!! so now that im sick, was on an errand - legit reasons for god sakes - i am UNDEDICATED!!! F**K you!!! F**K you all DEDICATED people!!!